Mirror mirror on the wall: Am i still me without any?

Reflecting, Embracing and Living.

Just last night I had updated my status that I plead friends not to visit me until after a week. The world is so full of everything. its full of cars, energy and activity. Company is full of energy, be it negative or positive. work is full of laughter, envy and judgement. weekends full of fake hugs, compliments and dancing. The weekly routine seems monotonous.

just this  morning I get a call from one of my best friends. you see now he has achieved lots. from being a pioneer, a teacher, a youth developer and an inspiration. I at times think his purpose is to dream. He told me that he cries at night when he tucks in. I got worried. he is such a great soul to end a day like that. all I could tell him is to pray. I spoke about the power of prayer before and I can yet again with all confidence say that it works and changes things. it is very important for one to spend time with yourself and enjoy your own company not thinking or wishing but embracing and appreciating. I have prayers every Tuesday, my mini appointment with King Jesus. and those are just gratitude prayers. prayers where I thank Him for all. all the little things I have become oblivious too because I am at times to consumed with dreaming and running after my dreams forgetting to note what He had given me. Inner happiness..
one should learn that in this very very active life, influences are random. And one can get so toxic from it and it bloats one soul. one ends up saying: I just want to be alone...one doesn't end up alone..one ends up with Facebook on ya pillow or a bottle of wine. What is so unwinding in that. don't get me wrong I don't dispute that. its just when last did you look at that vase you bought and thought, wow this is cute? when last have you looked at those pictures in that frame and thought: wow, I was so young here? See, we don't see and embrace the lil things that once made us so happy
it is time to find oneself and really focus on embracing the finer things in life. Say hi, how are you? with a smile that is meant. be conscious about your existence and make sure that yes you move a soul and bring happiness(that makes one feel amazing) try doing things for people with no recognition on magazine front pages.
let us live, stay calm and move on.
Life is only over when you cant see that beautiful smile of yours no more.
[currently reading: LIVING MORE LIFE BY: DON MORTIMER)